The great news is-at the rate I’m crying I won’t need to lick these envelopes. It’s hard because I never thought I was going to lose my parents (and family) in this way-not through their deaths but by the disapproval of the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. Well to be honest, it’s not about the fiance, it’s about his conflict with my culture and tradition. (anyways that’s another long story that I don’t have time to get into)
But I’d always thought that no matter what my parents would accept and love me…
Although I am sad, I’m not bitter-I don’t blame anyone, it’s just a conflict of cultures, and I’m grateful enough to have the ability to see both sides.
I just have to keep remembering that though I am losing much, I am gaining a lot too-so long as I can appreciate it. But it doesn’t have to take losing something to appreciate what you have.
A year ago-I would have never thought of the numerous people who dreaded the holidays…. but reading a xmas card in the local wal-mart, reading about hope, family, wishes, and knowing that xmas was never gonna be the same again because of what I’ll lose this season…my heart goes out to the people who won’t be spending time with the people they love (for whatever reason). So even though family can drive you crazy at times, appreciate the time you have with them, as I will appreciate the last xmas I’ll spend with my family tomorrow. :3